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Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
musesfool	11:30a	tender and broken histories Have a poem: Tide of Voices At the hour the streetlights come on, buildings turn abstract. The Hudson, for a moment, formal. We drink bourbon on the terrace and you speak in the evening voice, weighted deep in the throat. They plan to harvest oysters, you tell me, from the harbor by Jersey City, how the waters will be clean again in twenty years. I imagine nets burdened with rough shells, the meat dun and sexual. Below, the river and the high rock where boys each year jump from bravado or desperation. The day flares, turns into itself. And innocently, sideways, the way we always fall into grace or knowledge, we watched the police drag the river for a suicide, the third this year. The terrible hook, the boy's frail whiteness. His face was blank and new as your face in the morning before the day has worked its pattern of lines and tensions. A hook like an iron question and this coming out of the waters, a flawed pearl — a memory that wasn't ours to claim. Perhaps, in a bedroom by lamplight, a woman waits for this boy. She may riffle drawers gathering photographs, string, keys to abandoned rooms. Even now she may be leaving, closing the door for some silence. I need to move next to you. Water sluiced from the boy's hair. I need to watch you light your cigarette, the flickering of your face in matchlight, as if underwater, drifting away. I take your cigarette and drag from it, touch your hand. Remember that winter of your long fever, the winter we understood how fragile any being together was. The wall sweated behind the headboard and you said you felt the rim where dreams crouch and every room of the past. It must begin in luxury — do you think — a break and fall into the glamour attending each kind of surrender. Water must flood the mind, as in certain diseases, the walls between the cells of memory dissolve, blur into a single stream of voices and faces. I don't know any more about this river or if it can be cleaned of its tender and broken histories — a tide of voices. And this is how the dead rise to us, transformed: wet and singing, the tide of voices pearling in our hands. ~Lynda Hull *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/101838.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Reclamation - Fugazi (Comment on this)
Monday, November 30th, 2009
musesfool	9:09p	I met you at the station in Ronkonkoma So, we had a committee meeting today, and I swear to god, I thought someone was going to start throwing things. Writing the minutes up should be an interesting exercise in doublespeak. Board meeting tomorrow, and then I am done, DONE I TELL YOU, until January. I mean, I still have to work etc., but the craziness should abate. I hope. I am tired. And it makes it really hard for me to write. Witness the tiny writing round-up! November 2009 Writing Roundup swim in my blood when it's warm Supernatural; Sam/Dean; pg; spoilers through 5.04; 3,434 words Sam's seeing everything clearly now. your ears tuned to the roar Supernatural; Jo, Ellen; pg; spoilers through 5.10; 1,510 words In which Jo grows up. * Top 5 Songs - November 2009 6. Levon - Elton John 5. Song to the Siren - Sheila Chandra 4. Set the Story Straight - Tom McRae 3. Somebody to Love - Glee cast version 2. The Shape I Found You In - Girlyman 1. Psalms 40:2 - the Mountain Goats * BSG folk, you totally need to watch this vid about the frakked up relationship between Bill Adama and Starbuck: Like My Very Own Blood by jarrow. It's FANTASTIC. Creepy and utterly heartbreaking and just... takes the idea that Adama made Starbuck into his second son, his replacement for Zak, to its logical conclusion, including the damage it inflicts on her, him, and Lee. And of course Kara accepts it, clings to it - how does she know any better? *cuddles her* Really well done, and you know how bad I am at getting vids, but this one made total sense to me. * This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/101593.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Like a Luminous Girl - Mike Doughty (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 29th, 2009
musesfool	9:25p	lay out two or three good hits tonight Dear Sam, I am trying to get you laid. It would be easier if you weren't such an angsty motherfucker. Stop being so difficult! It's sex! It's supposed to be fun! No wonder most of the porn I write is about Dean. He rarely gives me this kind of trouble. Why can't you be more like your brother? frustratedly, me PS: Yes, I understand everyone you sleep with dies. I...am not breaking that streak. Um, sorry? I blame canon. Still, though. Sex! You should be less angsty about it! *** Holy shit, Jane Lynch is doing commercials for X-Box in which she is in character as Sue Sylvester. And they sing "Carry On Wayward Son." And the mother is a fan of Greco-Roman wrestling (i.e., oiled half-naked men getting sweaty together). I feel like this is some kind of crazy fannish collision. I am amused. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/101306.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: amused Current Music: Ravens v. Steelers on tv (Comment on this)
musesfool	12:42p	who got the will and the way Writing is hard. So I updated unfitforsociety instead, with 15 recs for November 2009: * 3 Supernatural * 3 crossovers * 2 White Collar * 2 Harry Potter * 2 Star Trek Reboot * 1 each Big Bang Theory, Dark Angel, and Psych *** Every time I listen to the Black Keys, I wonder why they haven't been used on SPN yet (if they were, I missed it). Dean could shock Sam by listening to something that was produced after 1979, but that still sounds like it came from the early '70s. Heh. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100934.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: Give Your Heart Away - the Black Keys (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 28th, 2009
morgandawn	9:05p	stove shopping we decided to replace our stove...but soon found that finding an ADA Compliant (disability accessible) free standing stove in our price range was not doable. Actually the disability access requirement was so basic we were surprised we couldn't find it: we needed the oven controls on the front of the stove not on the back. from there, we needed it to be a freestanding gas range. it needed a glass window so I could look inside without opening the door. and it needed to have burners that were closed so food would not fall into the flames. slide in stoves have all the controls on the front but no backsplash. Our stove is freestanding so it needs built-in a backsplash/rim (as well as side panels - most slide in stoves don't offer these as optional add-ons). This put us in the price range of real cheap stoves (no glass doors with open burners and doors with flimsy knobs) and the real expensive stoves. in the end it came down to 4 models and 4 models only. I ended selecting the higher end one because it had continuous grate burners (across the entire top of the stove) which meant I could slide the pots on and off the burners while seated in a wheelchair. And all the while I kept thinking... I don't really need an accessible stove - it's not like I am in a wheelchair every day. before the practical side reminded me: yet. your hip went out earlier in the year. We did consider repairing but I already was having problems with some of the broken controls on the old stove and it was impossible to clean and for a while the only setting it had was 'Scorch!!". The broken igniter just pushed it over the edge. [A Dreamwidth post with comments | Post a Dreamwidth comment| How to use OpenID] Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
musesfool	8:04p	she has fancy clothes and diamond rings The uploading continues apace. I am almost ready to stop for the evening and maybe try to write. Or something. I miss writing. It's been days since I did any. Sigh. I was uploading a lot of the codas I wrote in season 2, when I was still in the first flush of fandom love, and wow, season 2 was good for codas. I think I wrote at least one (sometimes more than one) for almost every episode. I miss that, too. * Tonight for dinner I made a roast loin of pork. It was very tasty. I combined garlic powder, onion powder, oregano, and basil in about a tablespoon of olive oil (for easy spreading), along with a couple of teaspoons of brown sugar and a large splash of vanilla (for years, I wouldn't tell my mother about the brown sugar and vanilla, and she couldn't replicate the taste. Heh.). Rub that on, top with a few pats of butter, and then cook until the internal temperature is 160°F. It was very tasty and juicy and good. * This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100853.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: baby, if you wanna be wild, you got a lot to learn (Comment on this)
Friday, November 27th, 2009
musesfool	11:40p	backpage news down in the neighborhood I don't really care about so much about the plots on White Collar. They just keep giving me tasty OT3 stuff and I'm content. I've spent most of the day uploading stuff to the AO3. It allows me to feel productive when I can't write. I have too many goddamn stories, though. angelgazing pointed out that I will never be done uploading because I write faster than I upload. Though possibly this is no longer the case. I don't know. I have been having my usual late autumn/early winter problems getting motivated. Since the archive takes so long to upload, I am also rereading some favorite stories (I don't have to pay as close attention to rereads - I can skim and skip and be interrupted without losing anything, 'cause I've already read them before). I keep getting errors, unfortunately, which is slowing things down even more. Technology is not my friend. I know lots of people are excited by tagging their stories in all sorts of ways, but I am doing what I find useful and that's it. As long as I get the characters/pairing on there, and maybe if it's a casefile or an episode tag, that's about the extent of my interest. Maybe if I upload my HP stuff, I'll split the Remus/Sirius out by era, like I have it in my tags on LJ, but mostly I don't care about the tags. *hides* Also, I wish there were a place in the profile to link to a warnings policy, and that that link could just automatically be included on every story. Because I am just using the "No Primary Warnings Apply" which isn't the same as "no warnings needed" but 99% of my stuff is "no warnings needed" and I'd like to be able to say that somewhere, since it isn't a choice on the warnings field. I guess I could make it a tag, but I never think of it. I wish it were automatic. Hmm... *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100505.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: lazy Current Music: Boom Boom Boom - the Iguanas (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 26th, 2009
musesfool	10:24p	he's done it with just one hand most of the time Happy Thanksgiving to those who are celebrating! Happy Thursday to those who are not. I hope everyone had a lovely day, regardless. My day began with BACON and PIE and ended with FOOTBALL and PIE, and in between there was stuffing and homemade cheese macaroni and turkey that was actually moist and tasty (!!), and more family shenanigans than you could shake a stick at. My brother was in rare form tonight, and basically had the whole table in stitches for most of the meal. Mostly at my expense, but eh, that's not new. and unfortunately, the Giants are capping off the day by sucking like unto a hoover, but I am too full and sleepy to care too much. I am thankful for my family, my friends - including you guys - my health, and my job. Man, a year ago at this time, I was a week away from being laid off. I'm still a little freaked out by how that went, still anxious and lacking in confidence sometimes, but I'm so glad I found a new job quickly, and one that I mostly like, for people and an organization that I like. (I'm also grateful that I have tomorrow off and I don't have to use a day - it's one of our holidays. Mmm...sleeping in...) I'm grateful I have health insurance and can pay my rent and that I have an apartment I love. I'm thankful for fandom, not just because of all the great stories to read and the feeling of having people who get my excitement about various shows and characters, but because of all the great people I've met and become friends with, who've made my life richer and better and more fun all around. *hugs* And also, I am thankful for PIE, and I would share some with you all if I could. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100175.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: Giants v. Broncos on tv (Comment on this)
morgandawn	6:12p	Cooking Triumphant We had our aging stove cleaned on Tuesday in advance of Turkey day. It worked fine last night....but this evening the gas is no longer flowing into the oven. Gas Bar-B-Que to the rescue! Thank goodness there was enough propane in the tank. We've never roasted a whole bird on the bar-bi before but it went well with the improvised metal roasting pan out of aluminum foil. Of course it meant xlorp had to sit outside in the dark tending the grill while I waved to him from the kitchen from time to time. The cats were not amused. I am, however, hoping that we might get a new stove out of all of this. The one that came with the house was very cheap and doesn't heat very well. [A Dreamwidth post with comments | Post a Dreamwidth comment| How to use OpenID] (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 25th, 2009
musesfool	10:41p	mama, put my guns in the ground Criminal Minds ( spoilers ) *** Maybe I will try to write. I would like to post one more story this month, if possible, before I buckle down on yuletide and broken toys. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/100016.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: lethargic Current Music: Knockin' On Heaven's Door - G'n'R (Comment on this)
musesfool	11:55a	some days, there's nothing left to learn So I have this thing where I reverse numbers all the time, e.g., I usually have to redial new to me phone numbers two or three times because I switch the order of the numbers, etc. NOTE TO SELF: NOW IS NOT THE TIME TO BE DYSLEXIC WITH ROMAN NUMERALS! *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99809.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: busy Current Music: i saved the world today - eurythmics (Comment on this)
morgandawn	12:24a	my cousins' wife was taken off life support and passed away. the cancer had spread into her lungs and she was in a medically induced coma for the last week. her oldest (9) told her father that her younger brother (5) was "too young" to have lost their mother.  neither child was able to say goodbye  - I am not certain if this is a good thing or not. she was 45 years old. [A Dreamwidth post with comments | Post a Dreamwidth comment| How to use OpenID]
Tuesday, November 24th, 2009
musesfool	11:44p	with a red guitar on fire For tonight's bout of stress baking, I made blueberry boy bait (as recommended by devildoll), which came out well, I think (I am taking half to work and half to the parents), but I also think it needs more blueberries. Clearly I need to double the amount next time. And possibly make it in cupcake tins or my mini-loaf pan. Hmm... Maybe one day I'll be like a real food blogger and remember to take pictures of stuff before I slice into it and wrap it up. Today was not that day. On my ride home tonight (I was at work late again), I listened to Adam Raised a Cain a few times and vidded it in my head. I would be the most literal vidder ever. Anyway. I know I say this all the time, but where is the Sam Winchester vid to this song? WHERE IS IT? I think this season has provided more awesome footage for someone to do this. ( the lyrics, in case you missed them the first 100 times I mentioned this idea ) Seriously, if I had minions, I would make one of them vid this for me. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99442.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: desire - u2 (Comment on this)
musesfool	2:07p	big fish, little fish some days, the bear definitely eats you. favorite repeated typos of today: RPF for RFP partners hips for partnerships *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99128.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: down by the water - pj harvey (Comment on this)
Monday, November 23rd, 2009
musesfool	11:01p	please tell me we'll stop for popcorn on the way Big Bang Theory ( spoilers ) *** Castle I don't think I like Beckett's hair. It's too...helmety. Or something. ( spoilers ) *happy sigh* Castle is my happy place. Now I need to sleep because I have to be in early tomorrow for meetings. Ugh. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/99055.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
morgandawn	3:49p	Holiday Cheer My wacky Chicago cousins have entered a contest - you write your own holiday song, film or use your own photos and upload the results to Youtube.  The winner gets to perform their song on TV. Underneath The Mistletoe Competition is stuff - check out Christmas is ruined! [A Dreamwidth post with comments | Post a Dreamwidth comment| How to use OpenID] (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 22nd, 2009
morgandawn	11:47p	One of my favorite food blogs Closet Cooking is one of my favorite cooking blogs. He excels in taking a single ingredient and then finding ways to combine it into different meals over the week. Butternut squash is coming into season. Here are a few suggestions. For simpler recipes with less ingredients, I still rely on Rachael Ray with a bit of tweaking (adding one or two more veggies to all of pastas and soups). Like this amazingly sinful, yet simple Chocolate Pots De Creme. [A Dreamwidth post with comments | Post a Dreamwidth comment| How to use OpenID] (Comment on this)
musesfool	11:44a	fic: your ears tuned to the roar (SPN; Jo, Ellen; gen) your ears tuned to the roar Supernatural; Jo, Ellen; pg; spoilers through 5.10; 1,510 words In which Jo grows up. Thanks to angelgazing for handholding and title-wrangling. ( your ears tuned to the roar ) ~*~ Feedback is adored. ~*~ This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/98389.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: Rhiannon - Fleetwood Mac (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 21st, 2009
musesfool	9:33p	i am riddled like the tide Sigh. My cake didn't rise, and worse, it tastes like failure. *crosses that recipe off the list* On the upside, there was reviewing of yuletide source. Now I just have to figure out what I'm writing. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/98189.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: Song to the Siren - Sheila Chandra (Comment on this)
musesfool	4:32p	be at least three days til she knows her heart has been broken Okay, this is the plan for hiatus: 1. yuletide 2. Broken Toys 3. the 5.10 story I'm working on right now (I keep having to stop because it's making me cry! That never happens to me when I write!) 4. The Dean-Michael dream story 5. Drought Conditions (casefile) 6. Nothing but Winter in my Cup (casefile) 7. the Dean/Sam/Pam story That's quite a lot, considering November and December are usually the time of my fannish malaise. This song is not helping with the crying, iTunes! Now, though, I think I am going to bake a cake. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/98022.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: ambitious Current Music: Leaving Atlanta - Vienna Teng (Comment on this)
musesfool	1:58a	across the fields of mourning, lights in the distance Oy, this day. Or, well, yesterday, at this point. The less said, the better. And did I mention I got my period this morning? oy. I left work late - I think I was the only person left in the office - and all I wanted was to come home and watch this week's Friday Night Lights. But the file I dl'd wouldn't play on WMP or QT or even VLC. I updated DivX and it wouldn't play on that either. So I deleted it, rebooted, and redownloaded, and it worked. I thought I might actually get through the episode without crying. I don't know why I thought that. I don't think it's ever happened, and it certainly did not happen tonight. Friday Night Lights: A Sort of Homecoming ( spoilers ) *** Okay, I just asked this in meret's comments, but ( spoilers for SPN s5 that's aired so far ) *** *yawn* Man, I totally need to sleep. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/97606.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 19th, 2009
morgandawn	9:00p	If you are a women over 40, please get annual mammograms and do monthly breast self-exams. Go in for an annual pap smear. If you're a parent of a child, please talk to your doctor about getting your pre-teen vaccinated against HPV - a virus that infects 70% of adult Americans and can cause up to 6 forms of cancer including vaginal and anal cancer. My cousin's wife is in a medically induced coma due to metastasized vaginal cancer and her family is struggling whether to wake her up and let her suffer a few more days so she and her two children can say goodbye to one another. She is 45. [A Dreamwidth post with comments | Post a Dreamwidth comment| How to use OpenID]
musesfool	11:47p	lacrimae volvuntur inanes Supernatural: Abandon All Hope Okay, so I tried to do a rant section and a non-rant section of this post, but the ranty stuff kept intruding. So while I really liked many aspects of this episode, the rage kept intruding. Just so you know. ( spoilers ) *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/97045.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: distressed Current Music: God's Children - The Gutter Twins (1 Comment |Comment on this)
musesfool	10:44a	sirens ring, shots ring out So I watched the Space promo for tonight's SPN. ( spoilers for the promo, speculation for the episode ) On a similar, but not quite the same note, faye_dartmouth has an interesting post about the issues she has with the show in s4 and s5, and while I don't agree with a lot of it (I am more optimistic about how the end game will play out, at least in terms of Sam and Dean and their relationship), I think her point about the apocalypse is sound. The thing is, they used to connect with the people they saved - they used to save people because people needed saving, and they used to get some satisfaction out of it. At least Dean did, and I think Sam was getting there. Stopping the apocalypse means, yes, saving 6 billion people, but it also tends to make them 6 billion faceless, unknowable people. I said this way back in season 2, but this kind of arc always draws things inward and narrows the world when it should expand it out - instead of concentrating on saving people! hunting things! Sam and Dean are themselves hunted and in need of saving, and the lack of connection with the people they are saving hurts the show as much as the fact that they can't really go all out and give us a real apocalypse. Last week's episode was a nod towards earlier seasons, when they did connect with the people they saved, but now they spend too much time being backed into corners and having to save themselves, and it's just less compelling to me that way (the same thing happened in the later seasons of BtVS and Angel, so it's not like I wasn't expecting it). ( casting spoilers for tonight's episode ) Meh. I am PMSing and cranky. Hopefully tonight's episode won't give me more reason to be. *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/96852.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: cranky Current Music: 6th Avenue Heartache - The Wallflowers (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 18th, 2009
musesfool	10:48p	remember the power of the ballad Criminal Minds ( spoilers ) Glee *facepalm* Could we have one woman on the show who isn't crazy, scheming, manipulative, or simply around to serve the men's storylines? Also, ( spoilers ) *** This entry at DW: http://musesfool.dreamwidth.org/96738.html. people have commented there. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: This Girl Is Taking Bets - Thea Gilmore (Comment on this)

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